Thursday, March 11, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
There was somebody very close to me who said that one thing she hated the most in this world was sexual abuse of kids. I didnt get the gravity of her statement till i saw this video. I wish there were many more Sunitha Krishnans around. I found her atleast 100 times more worthy as a speaker then Harsha Bhogle whose video i was initiall seeing when i stumbled upon this video
http://www.ted.com/talks/sunitha_krishnan_tedindia.html
Ted.com is an amazing website
Monday, January 18, 2010
My 1st blackout
Yesterday was the 1st time i experienced a blackout in my life. I kind of enjoyed it! After a long hiatus from physical activity i decied to go for jogging (my friends call it brisk walking in my case). After encircling the huge sports complex opposite IIT for 6 rounds i tried experimenting with a few of the exercises i was good at (once upon a long long time ago). I was liking it. But the trouble started when i decided to use a couple of equipments that were probably meant for gymnasts and all ! Believe it or not i started swinging on them. Within the 1st 20 seconds i felt a sudden rush of blood to my head and i fell down. But while i was falling down i didnt feel that i was falling down although i knew that i was falling down! As soon as i landed i hit my right knee hard on the ground and kept on stumbling forward throughout in a 45 degree position bent forward. My mind immediately realised that i was gonna hit the steel bars in front of me - face first. So i tried to stop myself from stumbing forward by falling completely down to the ground but i realised that i had no control over my body. During the whole time i couldnt see anything. It was completely black. No stars albeit. So i prepared myself mentally for a clash of my jaw against the steel bars. But i didnt. When i finally managed to regain active consciousness/vision, saw that i was stumbling forward in a different direction just brushing inches away from the bar!! I was so relieved that i didnt get this kind of a bone-rattling injury in the anyways killing-chilling weather.
Later i was so intrigued by this that i enquired it from everybody possible - my friends, some of them in medicine, google, wikipedia et al. This could have been a result of many things e.g. low blood pressure, syncope and a lot more. I personally susbscribe to the reason that as there was a sudden change of intensity and position, the requirement of blood in my head went up suddenly which was not met for a couple of seconds and i was blackedout for that moment. I just know this was the reason.
But it was a unique experience. Almost like i was floating in air for those few seconds. Anyways will get a professional opinion on this weekend.
Later i was so intrigued by this that i enquired it from everybody possible - my friends, some of them in medicine, google, wikipedia et al. This could have been a result of many things e.g. low blood pressure, syncope and a lot more. I personally susbscribe to the reason that as there was a sudden change of intensity and position, the requirement of blood in my head went up suddenly which was not met for a couple of seconds and i was blackedout for that moment. I just know this was the reason.
But it was a unique experience. Almost like i was floating in air for those few seconds. Anyways will get a professional opinion on this weekend.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
should i choose my words carefully ?
It's funny to know that how many different kind of Aruns exist in different people's mind, while all the time i am the same guy. I think they would be exactly the same number as the no of people in whose mind i exist.
However one broad categorization is that of a mastermind arun and a carefree innocuous arun. I realised this in an active thought process when on the same day i met 2 different set of people having the above-mentioned 2 contrasting opinions about me.
I guess this is pretty easy to explain.
When you dont speak out the 1st thing that comes to your mouth it amounts to a mature behaviour?? Does it mean that you have developed the ability to control your emotions, which in turn can help you outsmart gullible preys.....lol? I dont think so.
Infact it very clearly reflects on the other person with whom you exercise this 'chantpanti'. It is probabaly another form of a defence mechanisam, i would say. It is a personal loss in a relationship for the other person because it just means that I AM BEING CAREFUL WITH WHATEVER I SPEAK IN FRONT OF YOU BECAUSE I DONT TRUST YOU.
This phenomenon started occuring to me personally when i got going with my post-grad course. It was here for the first time that i saw people already harbouring the above attitude even to complete strangers. They were very correct in doing so becasue i learnt my lessons the hard way. Anything you said or did could be deformed and spread across the campus to such epic proportions that when you finally got to hear it from somebody you didnt realise it was about you till you heard your name. Initially i felt really bad about this but then i realised i was partially responsible for it. I decided to think more about it.
People with whom you were carefree and spoke your heart out were the ones who used whatever you said to their maximum advantage. I had no problems with anyone gaining but at the cost of someone?? I dont think so.
And they were everywhere. Your team members, your canteen buddies, your chaurangi lane buddies.....
So i also had to pick up my guard. I developed the ability to control my emotions as they might like to say it. I almost always knew what to say where, to safeguard my interest. There was just one problem. I became better than them in this. I also knew what to say to mess up other people's life but didnt ever feel like doing that. That would have been too unlike me. And i wasnt the one to do that even if it meant i had to suffer at times. So i just started being careful.
By god's kindness, throughout the 2 years i was always on the right side of things. Always. Ofcourse there were mini struggles everywhere but then thats the least i expected. I learnt so much about so many things, cities, people, politics. I made some interesting friends too. Ankit Agrawal stands out in them. I gifted him a lighter on his birthday that said 'i have issues'...lol. If that tells you something about our relationship.Truly speaking all that i learnt about people management in 2 years was from him. He was very sharp..like a true marwadi. He also introduced me to masala papad. (i will write an entire post about him).Tarunika Jain was another one. She always stood for me like a pillar. Despite me being too 'aloof' for her at times. I wish her all the best for her future. (She will form a big part of my book). And there are a few more whom i can trust in that heap of bodies.
But i guess the tradition of being careful is gotta continue for some more time coz office is pretty much the same.
There is another set of people, primarily from pre-mfc era and some from mfc and post-mfc era, who think of me as a crazy boy who is not afraid to say things that might even hurt me eventually. And mostly these are people whom i love. They keep telling me they dont want to hear me being so straight. They probably want me to be more diplomatic or restrained. And everytime i tell them that ab pakka se i will try restraint..i end up speaking my heart again. There is another set of people whom i am too frank with. These are the people who i openly challenge for an explanation.
Its just that people with whom i am careful dont really know the real Arun. Only people whom i torment by saying all the things i can have this privilege. Poor you ;-).
However one broad categorization is that of a mastermind arun and a carefree innocuous arun. I realised this in an active thought process when on the same day i met 2 different set of people having the above-mentioned 2 contrasting opinions about me.
I guess this is pretty easy to explain.
When you dont speak out the 1st thing that comes to your mouth it amounts to a mature behaviour?? Does it mean that you have developed the ability to control your emotions, which in turn can help you outsmart gullible preys.....lol? I dont think so.
Infact it very clearly reflects on the other person with whom you exercise this 'chantpanti'. It is probabaly another form of a defence mechanisam, i would say. It is a personal loss in a relationship for the other person because it just means that I AM BEING CAREFUL WITH WHATEVER I SPEAK IN FRONT OF YOU BECAUSE I DONT TRUST YOU.
This phenomenon started occuring to me personally when i got going with my post-grad course. It was here for the first time that i saw people already harbouring the above attitude even to complete strangers. They were very correct in doing so becasue i learnt my lessons the hard way. Anything you said or did could be deformed and spread across the campus to such epic proportions that when you finally got to hear it from somebody you didnt realise it was about you till you heard your name. Initially i felt really bad about this but then i realised i was partially responsible for it. I decided to think more about it.
People with whom you were carefree and spoke your heart out were the ones who used whatever you said to their maximum advantage. I had no problems with anyone gaining but at the cost of someone?? I dont think so.
And they were everywhere. Your team members, your canteen buddies, your chaurangi lane buddies.....
So i also had to pick up my guard. I developed the ability to control my emotions as they might like to say it. I almost always knew what to say where, to safeguard my interest. There was just one problem. I became better than them in this. I also knew what to say to mess up other people's life but didnt ever feel like doing that. That would have been too unlike me. And i wasnt the one to do that even if it meant i had to suffer at times. So i just started being careful.
By god's kindness, throughout the 2 years i was always on the right side of things. Always. Ofcourse there were mini struggles everywhere but then thats the least i expected. I learnt so much about so many things, cities, people, politics. I made some interesting friends too. Ankit Agrawal stands out in them. I gifted him a lighter on his birthday that said 'i have issues'...lol. If that tells you something about our relationship.Truly speaking all that i learnt about people management in 2 years was from him. He was very sharp..like a true marwadi. He also introduced me to masala papad. (i will write an entire post about him).Tarunika Jain was another one. She always stood for me like a pillar. Despite me being too 'aloof' for her at times. I wish her all the best for her future. (She will form a big part of my book). And there are a few more whom i can trust in that heap of bodies.
But i guess the tradition of being careful is gotta continue for some more time coz office is pretty much the same.
There is another set of people, primarily from pre-mfc era and some from mfc and post-mfc era, who think of me as a crazy boy who is not afraid to say things that might even hurt me eventually. And mostly these are people whom i love. They keep telling me they dont want to hear me being so straight. They probably want me to be more diplomatic or restrained. And everytime i tell them that ab pakka se i will try restraint..i end up speaking my heart again. There is another set of people whom i am too frank with. These are the people who i openly challenge for an explanation.
Its just that people with whom i am careful dont really know the real Arun. Only people whom i torment by saying all the things i can have this privilege. Poor you ;-).
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Who says we live one life
All of us have been pushed backed to the wall by life atleast some times in our lives. At such times we feel that this is it, we couldnt have got a worse deal than this, we could have done this right, there is just 1 life we have and we surly have messed it up, atleast so far.
And then there is a whiff of fresh air that takes you over the 'pain'. It can be anything -a person, a book, a cause, an ambition that makes your life better. It may be a combination of all these too. I realized this when i laid my hand on Lance Armstrong's book - it's not about the bike.
You experienced, if not lived, all that the guy went through. His difficult childhood, his athletic showmanship, unmatched adulation, his victory over the most advanced stage of cancer, his wife's concerted and determined effort to get a child through IVF, his mother's strength as a woman, and finally his comeback.
I really admire his wife for marrying someone who could have developed the cancer again in less than a year, who had turned ugly due to chemotherapy, who was medically announced to be incapable of becoming a father or returning to professional cycling. She did all this just for love?!?!?! Her determination to give lance the biggest happiness of becoming a father - jabbing syringes everday, eating sick medicines for more than 3 months just to prepare herself for the procedure. Also, i admire her because after getting married lance never had to take the pain of planning the holidays :-)
Her mother was strong like a boulder. She deliverd lance when she was just 15. Decided to raise him all by her own as everyone had deserted her. Living in the most shady areas, working for a pittance, studying for herself, paying the rent, managing the grocery, giving lance his expensive floss-candy and ice cream moments - all with a smile, never complained.
Lance - for literally talking down cancer out of him, for bending the rules of human bodies, for not caring a shit about the world and doing what he loved just for his loved ones.
Check out the youtube links below.It really motivates you beyond imagination.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3VfiXAaEQiY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIl5RxhLZ5U&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWBTNPTAJTc&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zHtFixj0cWk&feature=related
And then there is a whiff of fresh air that takes you over the 'pain'. It can be anything -a person, a book, a cause, an ambition that makes your life better. It may be a combination of all these too. I realized this when i laid my hand on Lance Armstrong's book - it's not about the bike.
You experienced, if not lived, all that the guy went through. His difficult childhood, his athletic showmanship, unmatched adulation, his victory over the most advanced stage of cancer, his wife's concerted and determined effort to get a child through IVF, his mother's strength as a woman, and finally his comeback.
I really admire his wife for marrying someone who could have developed the cancer again in less than a year, who had turned ugly due to chemotherapy, who was medically announced to be incapable of becoming a father or returning to professional cycling. She did all this just for love?!?!?! Her determination to give lance the biggest happiness of becoming a father - jabbing syringes everday, eating sick medicines for more than 3 months just to prepare herself for the procedure. Also, i admire her because after getting married lance never had to take the pain of planning the holidays :-)
Her mother was strong like a boulder. She deliverd lance when she was just 15. Decided to raise him all by her own as everyone had deserted her. Living in the most shady areas, working for a pittance, studying for herself, paying the rent, managing the grocery, giving lance his expensive floss-candy and ice cream moments - all with a smile, never complained.
Lance - for literally talking down cancer out of him, for bending the rules of human bodies, for not caring a shit about the world and doing what he loved just for his loved ones.
Check out the youtube links below.It really motivates you beyond imagination.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3VfiXAaEQiY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIl5RxhLZ5U&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWBTNPTAJTc&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zHtFixj0cWk&feature=related
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Mapping our eateries experiments
Me, Vinay and Nishant have decided that we will eat out only once in a fortnight. The reason is to help stay in shape (for me its to get in shape!! and no ,, round is not a shape). So this post is for our practical usage as it will serve another purpose. We have also decided that we will try a new place everytime. So...
Week -1 (of the yr) Sarvana Bhavan - Exquisite South Indian Eatery located in Janpath. Good Food. Fresh Juices were good but a tad expensive. Must try - rava kesari (sweet dish) full of ghee and calorie but worth the indulgence!! Waiting of half an hour approx.
Week -1 (of the yr) Sarvana Bhavan - Exquisite South Indian Eatery located in Janpath. Good Food. Fresh Juices were good but a tad expensive. Must try - rava kesari (sweet dish) full of ghee and calorie but worth the indulgence!! Waiting of half an hour approx.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
this is the worst part
I dont know what to do right now. My head is spinning and eyes want to burst out with pain. I dont want to take any medicines either. Because I know that my body is taking it's natural course to change. This surely is a consequence of over enthusiasam and over-exertion. Me and Pankaj landed up in Sirifort. We played TT for like 2 hours or something. Whenever i play TT there is just one person i want to play with. No its not Pankaj. Both of us were just about made for each other. We played just well enough for each other and it was such a stress-buster. Thereafter me and Pankaj went on an excruciatingly brisk walk. But Sirifort is the place to be if you wanna jog and all. Beautifully landscaped. I cant write any more...cya
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